it's tough missing someone who doesn't seem to miss you back.
it hurts to feel neglected.
it's frustrating how silent it is.
it's scary that this could be permanent.
and I can't help wondering if this is partly my fault.

I promise to hold back

current wants.

dELiAs Bow Tunic Tee, $26.50

Don't Give Up unisex tee, $22

City Style Flocked Ribbon Graphic Tee, $13.96

I'm always lusting after some piece of clothing or another, so these are my most recent wants. chances are I won't be as obssessed over some of these pieces two weeks from now.

note to self:
be careful when digging into the past,
even if the 'past' was around 5 months ago.
["even if" is interchangeable with "especially if", by the way.]
I wasn't expecting that, and it's putting me in low spirits, how much I miss it.
V, you've got a lot of other good things going for you right now, okay?
it's kind of funny, because when I wrote my last post, I was totally serious about leaving yesterday. I really was dead set on the whole idea.


they don't exist
they don't exist
they don't exist
..all right, I think I've got myself convinced.
gotta push foward.

that was then,
and this is now.
I left yesterday. I'm never coming back.
gotta keep my eyes fixed on You.

Today was nice. more sunshine and laughter and good times.

//things to look forward to:
+ seeing the flag football pictures
+ camp =D
+ KFC Halloween party
+ having people see my fall play
+ movie nights
+ movies, esp. This is It and Toy Story 3
//things that worry me a bit:
+ cotillion
+ modern practice
+ fall play
+ having no time/motivation to work out
+ my generation